Clowns Are Clowns, Or not.

It's been a while since the last time i wrote, and it was all about crappy, cheesy, slimey, gooey but true and pure extraction from my heart *tsaaah~


okay, according to title, why clowns and what's with the sad clown?
maybe i'll tell you a little about correlation about love, religion, and me.


About love,
It's been a few times i was in a relationship with someone, none of them have the same faith as mine, and none of them have a good ending with me. so it got me thinking, maybe it is time to look for the right partner, and at the same time a friend of mine told me this, " easy to get, easy to lost ". at first i said it was a stupid superstition but after this few times of unwanted ending with "easy to get" partner i believe it.


What's it got to do with religion and me?
As i mention above, none of my last partners had same religion as me, and our stories didn't end very well, and it got me thinking (again) why not look for the same religion now? I'm 21 years old, isn't it about time to get things serious? maybe too early, but what the hell? why don't I get use to real, and mature relationship?


And lastly about the clowns,
So the Almighty gave me another chance with someone new, with the same religion as mine, and really difficult to approach, and this got me thinking (again, and yes again) are You giving me the right partner this time? sure thing i can be the clown, entertaining and stuffs, but will You let me be the clown? will i be just a clown? will clowns just be clowns? or this clown can be her partner and be a normal, heartwarming, and fulfilling partner?


Current Mood Song * Landon Pigg - Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop
Eijhen